I’m just so stressed and annoyed lately. I feel like I am trying to make progress but I’m just spinning my wheels. As scary as it is I decided to cut out all the poison and negativity in my life. Toxic relationships, parasitic relationships and situations, medial things that I hate and that don’t better me in any way…. Stuff like that.
First I got rid of the stupid salon and I already feel a million times better. No more feeling like I have to choose between ethics or keeping my job and no more stupid rules. I got rid of a few other side projects I had going that just drained my time, energy and resources and the people involved never once showed any sign of loyalty or appreciation. Lost some “friends”.
I also cut off my safety nets. I love Untamed more than anything. It’s what I have done for years but I was so stuck in it I was forgetting how to do anything else. I think it makes me lazier and less creative to just always do what I’m good at…always doing what’s safe. So I cut that way WAY down for now. It was terrifying but Steve Jobs was right. You have to stay hungry, and stay foolish. I learn and grow more when I am being challenged. So to dump the restlessness I dumped everything I know. I got new hobbies, started working on new physical challenges in stunt class, got a new job I know nothing about, in an industry I know nothing about…
It’s hard but I like it. I don’t want things to be too easy. I like that I go to work and I don’t automatically do things second nature. I learn something new every single day and I have to work really hard. My body is exhausted and my brain is exhausted but I am happy J
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